Life isn’t fair, but it’s still good.

2011/04/08 esperanzafe
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M and I spent some time yesterday in nearby town getting things done for school and then he got his license renewed. While waiting for him to talk to his adviser I discovered some of the classes I’ll be taking for my Sociology degree. While most I’m fine with I have to admit I’m completely freaking out over these math classes. Geometry? Statistics? Eep! Let me just tell you that I have a VERY hard time when it comes to numbers. I get them all jumbled up a lot. I can know exactly how to do a formula, be doing it fairly flawlessly, and then the next day I will look at it and have no idea where to even start. It took me a very long time to even learn the basics. My math skills are limited to being able to balance a check book, find the better deal at the store, etc. I’m not completely clueless, I just have a harder time than most people. It’s due to a learning disability called dyscalculia.  Well, at least after going to this site Dyscalcula at least I’m seeing the Geometry might not be as hard as I was originally thinking.

We did find out that M is only around three or four classes away from finishing at the community college and switching to University (Pre-Med). I’m so very proud of him! He’s one step closer to having the career he’s dreamt about all his life and being able for us to live our lives the way we’ve discussed. While I do plan on getting a college degree, eventually it’s been decided that I’m going to stay home and make our home. I’m not opposed to working completely, I may work part time, but especially when the kids come a long we think it’s important that I be home for them. So, he’ll be a wonderful doctor. I’ll have my Sociology degree (POSSIBLY may have changed that major, may switch to being a counselor instead of a social worker…we’ll see where G-d leads me.) and I’m sure that when M and my children are grown I’ll work full time. It’ll just be good to have the degree to fall back on. I don’t want to be completely useless if my husband and I reach a point of financial stress that I need to go back to work for. I am sure G-d would want us to be prepared. I am also positive that G-d wants us to expand our minds and be the best people that we can be.

I see that M has been looking at the Harvard transfer program. I’m praying that if this is where he wants to go, that G-d find us a way to get there and live comfortably. We don’t need to be rich; I’m absolutely FINE shopping at thrift stores, living in a studio apartment, and keeping our materialistic objects to a minimum. I know we’d make it work, no matter where we ended up moving. At first M was saying we’d stay here because I’m starting school. I told him we could stay here if he absolutely wanted but that I can go to community college just about anywhere. It’s important that he go to a good university and then be able to get into a good med school. I support whatever decision he makes in regard to this, it’s his career and education after all, but I know that when I look at a doctor’s degree on the wall I want to have heard of the school he went to, haha!

I’ve really been wishing I had some chalks. I’d love to start drawing again and I was always pretty good with chalks. I can draw some pretty still life pictures. I’m also pretty good with flowers.

Oh! I found this awesome framed monogram done with broken crayons. The person had made it for her child’s teachers but I thought it would be a really cute thing to put in a child’s nursery.  Wouldn’t this….Broken Crayon Wall Art…look adorable in a nursery or playroom? Seems pretty simple to make, too! I think I would spell out the child’s name. That site has so many great ideas. I find myself saying, “I would never think to use ________ for ________” many times! I have many of the projects bookmarked on this computer so that I can go back later and make some of the things.

In baby making news, I should be at my most fertile the week of the 19th. I’m praying that this is the month because I’d love to give M his first child as a birthday gift. It’d be a late birthday gift (I calculate I’d be due Jan 9 and his birthday is Jan 6, I also tend to ovulate later in my cycle so it’d probably put our due date a little later) but still an awesome gift! I even know how I’m going to tell him! It’s a cute idea and I know he’ll be surprised. I’d write about it but he reads this and I don’t want to ruin the surprise! I really can’t wait to see him as a father. He’ll be incredible. I can’t wait to see his face when we’re finding out, feeling the baby move for the first time, seeing his son or daughter, and so many more firsts. My husband is a sensitive man and I know he’ll be an emotional wreck, as will I, and I can’t wait to experience all of it with him!

I suppose that I should end this. I’m getting tired again and think I’m going to nap until a better hour. Waking up at 1:30 am (I fell asleep fairly early in the evening) just messes up my sleeping schedule. I’m trying to keep with a normal schedule, waking up in the morning and going to be at night, not the other way around!


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