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Life isn’t fair, but it’s still good.

M and I spent some time yesterday in nearby town getting things done for school and then he got his license renewed. While waiting for him to talk to his adviser I discovered some of the classes I’ll be taking for my Sociology degree. While most I’m fine with I have to admit I’m completely freaking out over these math classes. Geometry? Statistics? Eep! Let me just tell you that I have a VERY hard time when it comes to numbers. I get them all jumbled up a lot. I can know exactly how to do a formula, be doing it fairly flawlessly, and then the next day I will look at it and have no idea where to even start. It took me a very long time to even learn the basics. My math skills are limited to being able to balance a check book, find the better deal at the store, etc. I’m not completely clueless, I just have a harder time than most people. It’s due to a learning disability called dyscalculia.  Well, at least after going to this site Dyscalcula at least I’m seeing the Geometry might not be as hard as I was originally thinking.

We did find out that M is only around three or four classes away from finishing at the community college and switching to University (Pre-Med). I’m so very proud of him! He’s one step closer to having the career he’s dreamt about all his life and being able for us to live our lives the way we’ve discussed. While I do plan on getting a college degree, eventually it’s been decided that I’m going to stay home and make our home. I’m not opposed to working completely, I may work part time, but especially when the kids come a long we think it’s important that I be home for them. So, he’ll be a wonderful doctor. I’ll have my Sociology degree (POSSIBLY may have changed that major, may switch to being a counselor instead of a social worker…we’ll see where G-d leads me.) and I’m sure that when M and my children are grown I’ll work full time. It’ll just be good to have the degree to fall back on. I don’t want to be completely useless if my husband and I reach a point of financial stress that I need to go back to work for. I am sure G-d would want us to be prepared. I am also positive that G-d wants us to expand our minds and be the best people that we can be.

I see that M has been looking at the Harvard transfer program. I’m praying that if this is where he wants to go, that G-d find us a way to get there and live comfortably. We don’t need to be rich; I’m absolutely FINE shopping at thrift stores, living in a studio apartment, and keeping our materialistic objects to a minimum. I know we’d make it work, no matter where we ended up moving. At first M was saying we’d stay here because I’m starting school. I told him we could stay here if he absolutely wanted but that I can go to community college just about anywhere. It’s important that he go to a good university and then be able to get into a good med school. I support whatever decision he makes in regard to this, it’s his career and education after all, but I know that when I look at a doctor’s degree on the wall I want to have heard of the school he went to, haha!

I’ve really been wishing I had some chalks. I’d love to start drawing again and I was always pretty good with chalks. I can draw some pretty still life pictures. I’m also pretty good with flowers.

Oh! I found this awesome framed monogram done with broken crayons. The person had made it for her child’s teachers but I thought it would be a really cute thing to put in a child’s nursery.  Wouldn’t this….Broken Crayon Wall Art…look adorable in a nursery or playroom? Seems pretty simple to make, too! I think I would spell out the child’s name. That site has so many great ideas. I find myself saying, “I would never think to use ________ for ________” many times! I have many of the projects bookmarked on this computer so that I can go back later and make some of the things.

In baby making news, I should be at my most fertile the week of the 19th. I’m praying that this is the month because I’d love to give M his first child as a birthday gift. It’d be a late birthday gift (I calculate I’d be due Jan 9 and his birthday is Jan 6, I also tend to ovulate later in my cycle so it’d probably put our due date a little later) but still an awesome gift! I even know how I’m going to tell him! It’s a cute idea and I know he’ll be surprised. I’d write about it but he reads this and I don’t want to ruin the surprise! I really can’t wait to see him as a father. He’ll be incredible. I can’t wait to see his face when we’re finding out, feeling the baby move for the first time, seeing his son or daughter, and so many more firsts. My husband is a sensitive man and I know he’ll be an emotional wreck, as will I, and I can’t wait to experience all of it with him!

I suppose that I should end this. I’m getting tired again and think I’m going to nap until a better hour. Waking up at 1:30 am (I fell asleep fairly early in the evening) just messes up my sleeping schedule. I’m trying to keep with a normal schedule, waking up in the morning and going to be at night, not the other way around!


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Hope and Faith

These are the things I have when I think of our future together. My husband and mine, I mean. As long as he is by my side I have nothing to fear of the future. Together we’re a united front against anything the world throws our way. I definitely know that things won’t always be perfect, we’re going to have our disagreements, but the love we share is real and nothing will take away from that.

This journal is going to be for me, I think. Somewhere to write the things that I don’t want friends and family knowing yet. The journey of trying to conceive, newlywed bliss (everyone is tired of hearing our cheesy romantic lines haha), and all the ups and downs that makes my life as beautiful and chaotic as it is. This journal will be where I can talk about my attempts at being a good Christian wife. Of working to stay on a path that G-d smiles on. So, for my first post I think I will write a list of goals for myself.

I will try to remember that my husband is head of the household. G-d gave us roles to fulfill and I will work towards being the heart of the home, not the head. I am created out of man who is created out of G-d. It is my job to be submissive to my husband. It is an honor to be given this role and I will work to stick with my role.

I will continue working towards being “fruitful”. Besides, trying is lots of fun!(-crosses fingers for this month- If we get pregnant this month, our baby would be due in the beginning of January. A wonderful birthday gift for M!) Seeing M with our nieces makes me want so badly to make him a father. He’s amazing with kids, even if he’s nervous about being a good father, but I know that the patient and loving man I married was pretty much made to be a daddy.

I will go to school and better myself which will in turn better our lives. I will do things that are pleasing to my husband because he’s an amazing man and deserves it. (Surprise dinners, cuddles, etc…just show my love for the incredible man G-d brought to me!). Getting my Sociology degree will open up so many doors for us. M will be a doctor (eventually!) and I’ll work in social work. I’m not sure if I want to do adoptions or take children out of dangerous situations but I feel that my life is being pulled in that direction. I’ve enrolled at the local community college and hopefully will be approved for the financial aid. The process confuses me but I’m pushing through and am praying that I’ll be in classes come fall.

M and I are truly blessed. We have a nice house, great family (my in laws really are incredible), and a future that is wide open and ready for us to fill it. I honestly can’t wait. I look at M and my heart catches because to me he is the most incredible and beautiful man I have EVER met. I get so overwhelmed by the amount of love I feel for him and know that he feels for me. How did I get so very lucky?

On that note, I’m going to end this. I’m going to make it another goal to write in this at least once a week. I have another one but this one is definitely more private, of course M could read it if he wanted. I just meant family and friends are going to be shut out. I feel that I need something for me and this is it. Writing is so healing!

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